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At 6:56 PM -0400 5/15/12, Tyler wrote: >Hello. If I go to the Looper's Delight website and donate money, will it >go to good use? Or is that an old outdated button from 2006? The donate button is current and 100% of every donation goes directly toward server costs. Any amount is appreciated! I'm sorry I haven't been able to write to personally thank everyone who's donated. I've kind of been a wreck the past couple of years. This seems a good opportunity to mention that now that estate issues have finally been resolved, I'll be able to move foward on updating the site. It's probably going to be a slow process (made more difficult for reasons I can't go into without upsetting myself, and I'm still struggling so hard to pull myself up out of the darkness, I rather not do that), but my hope is that even if the process of updating does end up being slow, it will at least be steady. I just have to keep trying to do the best I can to make it through one day at a time, not just with LD, but everything. This is such a challenging time, filled with overwhelming and scary stuff I've never had to deal with before, and getting through it with no family or partner to even just give me a hug or tell me they love me on a shitty day has been brutal. Surviving has been, and continues to be, a painful journey, one I nearly didn't go on, not by choice, but because everything in me simply shut down and broke down and stopped. The fact that I'm still here to move into the future at all is a miracle. So, y'know, whatever I manage to get done, whether it's taking a shower or eating actual food or just waking up one more day, I'm proud of myself for getting that far, and that's important to me, being proud that I'm still fighting the fight. Small victories don't seem so small any more. Realising that small victories are still victories is kind of nice, but being satisfied with baby steps is hard when you're someone who's always wanted to have everything in the world done by yesterday and only knows how to do things by pushing yourself to the breaking point instead of pacing. I'm trying to learn how to go easy on myself. It's hard. I spend a lot of time reminding myself about the tortoise and the hare, trying to stay positive. So, yeah, anywho, now that I've given myself yet another pep talk.... By the way, Tyler, I've really been enjoying your posts. Your questions and observations are always interesting. I wish you could have known Kim. I think you would have liked him. I really liked the "Why NOT Looping..." thread, too. You guys are always good for a laugh. Well, mostly. LOL Violet xoxox